At times the loneliness is overwhelming - thick and heavy. The weight of my mistakes crashes down around me. There is no going back. There is no going home. There is no learning.
I went for my first acupuncture appointment this morning. My doctor recommended it as a way to address reoccuring sinus infections. During the intake process I assumed the physician would talk about sinus and allergy issues and eventually move on to the needles. I actually had a dream the night before about the needles. I hate needles. As I sat down the woman informed me that we will be taking a holistic approach to the treatment. Then she started asking questions. At first the questions seemed pretty straight forward- even sinus related...but then the questions became more focused. For 2 hours we talked about everything imaginable. It was intense and draining. I left with a headache that I did not arrive with and my head still hurts.
I go back for the first treatment later this week. The can of worms has been opened and there's no turning back...
