Whenever I feel blue I start breathing again - even if I don't want to.

At times the loneliness is overwhelming - thick and heavy.  The weight of my mistakes crashes down around me. There is no going back.  There is no going home. There is no learning.   

I went for my first acupuncture appointment this morning.  My doctor recommended it as a way to address reoccuring sinus infections.  During the intake process I assumed the physician would talk about sinus and allergy issues and eventually move on to the needles.  I actually had a dream the night before about the needles.  I hate needles.  As I sat down the woman informed me that we will be taking a holistic approach to the treatment.  Then she started asking questions.  At first the questions seemed pretty straight forward- even sinus related...but then the questions became more focused.  For 2 hours we talked about everything imaginable.  It was intense and draining.  I left with a headache that I did not arrive with and my head still hurts.  

I go back for the first treatment later this week.   The can of worms has been opened and there's no turning back...